I often went through these bouts of feeling lost, unattended, abandoned and unwanted, as if there was no purpose or direction in life or there was nothing to be cheerful about anymore. Seemingly, I couldn’t ask for a better life. I married my best friend whom I knew for about 7 years prior to tying the knot. We have a wonderful rapport and thank God not much has changed after being married. In fact, we got to understand and appreciate better as two individuals and as spouses, And we liked what we saw. Shortly after getting married, God blessed us with a gorgeous daughter who we adore and cherish.
A couple of months ago I contacted an old friend who I do not talk to now (mutually) and after an unpleasant exchange of words I got the epiphany that it was just my inner loneliness and desperation to get in touch with my old self that had convinced me to get in touch with someone who I obviously knew wasn’t meant to be a stable presence in my life. It was the sudden change of events in my life, one after another that had infused this weird, clinging feeling on depression inside me. I even Googled depression symptoms (believe me I did) and was relieved that it wasn’t depression at all, thank God. So I decided to turn my life around, day by day, one step at a time by doing something, achieving new goals, putting myself out of my comfort zone, learning new, challenging stuff to re-brand myself and find better purpose in life.
Everyone of us is good at something and this is what I believe I’m good at: expressing, communicating my thoughts and feelings through words. So I promised myself that I’ll get out there and do what I believe I can nicely do rather than just feeling worse about myself and assuming I’m miserable. In these times, the biggest flaw of the world’s collective society is apathy: people don’t give a shit what you’re going through, how you’re feeling or even if you’re going to make it to the next day. Life is empty with regard to relationships, nobody cares, there’s a genuine, lasting lack of love and affection. This for me, is an epidemic of most serious nature. People like you and I feel there is always something missing, no matter how positive we are as people, because in fact, there is not enough human interaction of emotional sort. I’m not telling you to probe into people’s personal lives or cry 24/7. No, but just be true to yourself and take initiative to fix your problems and possibly, others’. No feeling is more rewarding than being a pillar of strength and support for someone, not asking for anything in return. I can tell you with certainty that with the increase of human contact via social media and gadgets, people being a swipe away, the loneliness is increasing at alarming rates because there is no fulfillment. There aren’t enough people who actually care. Ask yourself: when was the last time someone ask you “so what’s really going on in your life” expecting a long reply?
Together we can make the life happier and more fulfilling if we have a more responsive attitude towards what’s occurring around us and just a tad more empathetic towards people. You might be the only one someone has, don’t bail out. Think about it.